long time neh blog liao .
mum locked the com -.-
went band for the past two days .
just went out with lixian ' twinneh just now .
maybe going for bowling ltr .
gtg now .
-MIA-

I gotta say wad's on my mind ,
something abt us ,
doesnt seem right these days .
life keeps getting in the way ,
whenever we try somehow the plan ,
is always rearranged .

It's so hard to say ,
but I gotta do wad's best for me .
You'll be ok .

I got to move on and be who I am .
I just dun elong here .
i hope you understand .
We might find a place in this world someday .
But at least for now ,
I gotta go my own way .

Dun wanna leave it all behind .
but i get my hopes up ,
and I watch them fall everytime .
another colour turns to grey .
and it's just too hard to watch it all ,
slowly fade away .

I'm leaving today ,
coz i gotta do wad's best for me .
You'll be ok .

I've got to move on and be who i am .
I just dun belong here .
i hope you understand .
We might find a place in this world someday .
But at least for now .
I gotta go my own way .

Wad abt us ?
Wad abt everything we've been through ?

Wad abt trust ?

You know I never wanted to hurt you .

And wad abt me ?

What am I suppposed to do ?

I gotta leave but I'll miss you .

So I've got to move on and be who I am .

Why do you have to go ?

I just dun belong here I hope you understand .

I'm trying to understand .

We might find a place in this world someday.
But at least for now ,

I want you to stay .

I wanna go my own way .
I've got to move on and be who I am .

What abt us ?

I just dun belong here .
I hope you understand .

I'm trying to understand .

We might find a place in this world someday .
But at least for now .
I gotta go my own way .

back frm shopping at orchard rd .
my legs are gonna break .
bought many new clothes .
damn sian .
joey asked me to check email .
oso nth -.-
damn sian now .

just woke up .
now 9 plus .
actualy just nine .
gt nth to do .
so wake up liao htne play com .
dn noe wad to do today .
bought new sku bag ytd .
damn retarded ._.

didnt blog for quite long alr .
this yr was the worst yr I've ever had .
birthday sucks .
christmas sucks .
but christmas eve rocks coz I went out with 4 clarinetists .
go kbox , then pool .
pictures are on fb :D

wtf sia .
my brother damn irriating and selfish sia .
he going his fren hse for christmas party tmr .
then I going out with 4 clar .
then my mother dun let .
then I ask her book for me the kbox .
then she say .
Did I say you can go ? -'-
then ltr I check the kbox thing myself .
then stupid bro dun wanna let me .
he can go his christmas one then I cant larh .
then I say ,
now i cannot go you happy larh .
then he say ,
FREAKING HAPPY .
no life -'-

since you alr know dat it's me
then why didnt you say anything ?
you didnt even acknowledge me or anything .
and you know ,
while you were overseas ,
you wun noe how much I missed you .
you just wun know .
coz you never loved me at all .
i guess .
You make me think dat you like me you know .
seriously .
but I dun noe .
I'm so confused .
and since you know it was me ,
why didnt you just tell me dat you dun like me or just DO SOMETHING dat shows me that you noe dat I'm si jia .
WHY ?
then you scold ppl .
and say : you dun even care abt the feelings of the person you like , so why shld i respect you ?
then let me tell you this ,
you dun even bother acknowledging me even though you know it's me .
how do you tink I'll feel ?
you say I'm selfish .
then let me ask you this ,
aren't you ?
you say I'm selfish coz i only care for myself and my boredomness .
then let me ask you this ,
what abt you ?
last time you say you bored ,
then want me to tok to you .
but at that time ,
I was busy .
but I still chatted with you .
isnt this supposed to be a vice-versa thing ?
you say you bored and want me to chat with you , then I chat .
then now i say I bored and want you to chat with me .
then you say you not free .
then let me ask you this ,
when you said you were bored and wanted to chat with me ,
have you ever wondered if I was free ?
and yes , you said I was selfish .
Aren't you at all ?
before you push the blame to someone ,
look in the mirror .
dun you tink you were at fault too ?
and yeah ,
so what if I love you ?
you dun need to push it right ?
humans have feelings .
and if you're nt human then I must have wasted a lot of time on you .
you made me angry ,
you dun even bother apologising .
what kinda logic is it ?
then ltr u RELUCTANTLY apologised .
fine larh .
forgive lorh .
who ask me love you so much .
you dun apologise I oso will forgive you .
you know why ?
becoz I love you .
and when I make you angry ,
I say sorry so many times ,
no reply .
WTF SIA .
你不会觉得自己太过分吗 ？
and yes , you know I like you .
SO WHAT ?
means you can have dat as an advantage and push me around like ur pathetic toy is it ?
sorry larh .
I didnt mean to post this on my blog but .
if you wanna treat ppl like dat ,
then I have no point to treat you good anymore right ?
Faggot -'-

woek up early in the morning .
michelle ask me go swensens with her -.-
siao liao .
then my bro there kbkp .
for no reason cry cry cry .
siao liao .
ong yan maybe coming ltr to play xin tiao again ^^

went back to fs band today .
wasted my time there .
I slacked with nat for 3 hrs .
slack till damn sian .
coz ms wong say have band then mr png say dun have .
so in the end only 19 ppl go -.-
i'm the only senior .
jian zhou went for the recruit one .
I dun tink it's fun at all ._.
ok .
then met up with yq and wf .
they to my hse and play lots of things .
played ti amo and xin tiao on my piano .
i listen wf play till damn sian arh -.-
anyway ,
gtg now .

need to cong homework BIG TIME .
left 5 chinese jian bao , englsh scrapbk and home econs scrapbk .
THE SCRAPBK IS A TOTAL WASTE OF TIME .
dat time make the dietary fibre one oso useless -.-
WTF SIA .
waste time nia .
and the chinese compo was also a waste of time coz I did it before .
so ijust took out the previous one and copy over -.-
NO LIFE .
homework is damn freaking pathetic .
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I guess I'll forget you at the moment .
no point thinking of you when you're thinking of another person .
bye .

back frm bintan .
was nt bad .
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after I noe dat you're attached ,
you cant imagine how sad I was .
but I tink it's a lie .
coz you told me 1 wk ago dat you didnt like anyone .
are you telling the truth ?
coz you went overseas ,
maybe you met her overseas ?
I dun noe .
and i dun wanna noe .
but if you're with her ,
then ,
I'll give you my blessings.
but if you're nt ,
dun worry .
I'm right here waiting for you .
if you're happy with her ,
I'll forget abt you and get on with life .
I've nv loved a guy so much before .
I swear .

going bintan ltr .
so no sms-es or wadeva .
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use your name when you wanna lie to ppl .
I noe it sounds dumb but you dun have to avoid me .
stop being an idiot .
you're just making me hate you more .

decided nt to go for band bbq due to some reasons .
mainly coz of the stuff dat happened on monday .
so I decided nt to waste my time going there anymore .
somemore only gt 3 sec one girls going .
me , huiting and lydia .
so it's gonna be damn sian .
and it's like a myth to say dat .
when you dream of someone , dat person thought abt you when he is abt to go and slp .
is it true ?
coz i dreamt of someone .
kinda funny dream though .
LOL .
I dreamt of dat person .
which means dat he/she is thinking abt me when they're abt to slp larh ?
am I right to say dat ? -.-
ok .
great .
at least I noe you bothered thinking abt me .....................

going bowling ltr with mum's colleague .
LOL .
now nth to do .
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I'm still waiting for you to come back .
take care .

going out with mum ltr .
go do facial `.
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I'm still waiting for you to come back .
And if you do ,
will you contact me ?
dun worry .
I'll wait for you .
I promise .

meeting lydia ltr .
to go for the movie -.-
sians .
just finished piano lesson .
nth to do now .

going dhoby ghaut tmr with band .
to watch rapaunzel .
I dun noe how to spell ._.
anyway .
why cant they just to tm or ehub ?
much nearer -.-
anyway ,
i'm meeting lydia and maybe ruth .
this weekend is kinda kns -.-
nth to do one .
nw chatting with natalie .

went british council .
today last day .
then something happened to phyllis .
I forgot .
but she tell me dun post on my blog .
but if I rmb , I will post .
and yeah ,
my courage increasing day by day .
so by the day you come back .
I tink it'll be full .

last day of british council .
gonna take neos with phyllis ltr (:
gonna be damn cool lorh .
anyway ,
I was really damn sad ytd .
I very long time neh sad until like dat liao .
coz of someone .
someone very special and important to me .
Msg to dat person :
must we really nao dao zhe zhong di bu ?
seriously ?
isnt it obvious enough ?
nan dao ni bu zhi dao wo you duo me ai ni mah ?
bu yong zing .
wo den ni hui lai zai shuo .
ni zui hao gei wo yi ge hen hao de jie shi .

went british council .
EVERYTHING FAILED OK .
I hate this a lot .
and must we 闹到这种地步吗？
must we so serious until delete as fren on fb ?
SERIOUSLY ?
can't you tell dat there's something going on now ?
SERIOUSLY .
forget it .
i'll wait till you come back then say .
bon voyage .

yoh peeps .
having tution ltr .
followed by another tuition -.-
can actually die of tuitions -.-
sians .
anyways .
gtg now .

going british council as usual ltr .
jerry's only going for an hr .
AS USUAL .
HE'S RICH -.-
anyway ,
I gt nth to do now .

went british council today .
as usual -.-
sian .
AND THE FUNNY THING IS .
PHYLLIS FELL DOWN .
IN A SUPERWOMAN POSITION .
and yu qi and I were like .
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA .
NONE STOP ALL THE WAY TO CLASS .
then when we went in , the whole class was like ,
why the hell are you laughing ?
then we were like ,
COZ SHE FELL DONE IN A SUPERWOMAN POSITION -pointing to phyllis-
LOL .
DAMN FAIL LORH .
then jerry was like ,
NICE ONE .
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isnt it obvious enough today ?
WASNT IT ?
SERIOUSLY ?
NEH MIND .
I'll wait .
until thursday as you'll be flying off .
i just hope you'll see this .

I hate fb alot .
I cant change my name anymore -.-
DARN IT .
and to you .
I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry. I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry .
And no , I didnt copy and paste it . I swear .

let me ask you .
who likes being pissed by someone .
no one likes it .
if you tink I'm disturbing you then just say it .
dun need to use such a bad tone .
you can just say , I'm bz and next time I'll chat with you .
you tink I like being bored .
SERIOUSLY ?
do you tink I enjoy being bored ?
then let me ask you this .
who likes being bored ?
you dun and I dun .
and obviously ,
when someone is bored ,
you will want someone to tok to you .
and if no one toks to you .
obviously you will take the initiative -.-
and when I tok to you .
you give me some frenly manner kinda answer .
and obviously I'll tink dat you're free and you're bored like me .
so obviously I'llt kto you more larh -.-
thenyou say you're kinda bz .
so I just say ok and bye .
then after a while you ask me why no reply .
then I say you said then you were bz so I didnt disturb you .
then you say nvm .
then when I start toking to you again .
you say I'm annoying .
but when I dun tok to you .
you say just tok .
nvm .
then when I tok you find me annoying .
wad kinda logic is this ?
anyway ,
it's cold war time now .
so I guess we wun be chatting for quite a long long time .
but my horoscope says I'm compatible with cancer today .
so shld I take the risk ?
well .
since it's cold war then .....
I guess .....
I dun noe wad to do .
maybe I shld leave things alone and let them take their natural course .
but I'm impatient ._.
LOL .
so I seriously dun noe wad to do .
after all .
I'm the one at fault .

stupid fb .
I changed my name too many times then nw they say I've reached my limit -.-
I ANYHOW CHANGE ONE LEH .
does anyone noe how to change back ????????
PLEASE HELP ME .

yoh early readers .
going for tuition at british council ltr .
stupid playboy's gonna be late -.-
dat's actually a gd thing .
more peace (:
anywho ,
I gt nth to do nw so I tink I shld stop writing -.-
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stuck in my head .
dat's all you are .

hah .
how come gt this kinda logic .
3 months ago ,
you told me dat you cant forget me .
and you wun forget me forever .
and nw , you like another person .
WOW .
HOW GREAT IS DAT ?
and when I ask you ,
you say you dun wanna give up on me .
then why is it dat you're crushing on another girl .
it's not dat I'm jealous .
but at least show some respect please .
show some respect to me , to dat girl and to yourself .
dun make ppl look down on you .
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went british council today again .
there's this new guy called jerry ng .
OH GOD .
HE'S DAMN FUNNY .
I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING EVERYTIME HE SAYS SOMETHING .
AND HE'S FB NAME IS weird ._.
damn weird .
like some french name thingy -.-
anyway ,
gtg now .
buh bye .